too much distraction in the world today. difficult to focus on what’s really really important. there are some hard truths that need to be realised, but i don’t think many people are hard enough for them. it’s hard to stay authentic, hard to stay real. Too much sheen on things. the gloss, the shine. 

pleasure is transient, but true happiness lasts forever. i think people see the transient things sometimes as being important - transient joys. the REALLY important things, the ones that have to be worked a little harder for, i think, people don’t value as much these days. life has become too much about instant gratification. i wonder if people become empty because of this. 

i think about the concept of ‘acceptance’ alot. many seem to think that this is a bad thing. when they think of acceptance, they think of settling - being stuck somewhere almost. But, without learning to accept, can anyone really move forward? The theme of permanence seems to be unpopular these days. Everyone wants to move, move on, move up, move to the next thing, move away…there’s too much movement. It makes me dizzy sometimes. I sometimes catch myself holding my breath and i don’t know why - like i’m trying to steady myself and stop myself from getting carried away in the rush. Too much rush. 

I wonder if i’m getting old, thinking this. Youth is often associated with movement, age with permanence. Nothing wrong with that i think. I think people need to stop for a second and appreciate more. 27. having realised this, do i stop moving?

delayed gratification..what are the perks? enjoy the now or miss out? This seems to be the eternal dilemma. I wish there were answers.