current obsessions.

how I feel about work

Tue, 14 May 2013 10:44:18 +1000

funny. the good days/down times of the job are so good they make you forget the 3% of the time shit goes down and you hate yourself for it. comes in waves, as they say.

new things

Sat, 11 May 2013 14:29:56 +1000

new awesome thing I like to do

sit in the bath and watch a movie on the laptop, with the laptop on a barstool

sit outside in the backyard on this 25degree day

flirting with the idea of

Wed, 01 May 2013 13:53:51 +1000

Taking a year off.

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Sun, 14 Apr 2013 12:20:27 +1000

Lili Barbery-Coulon, Beauty Editor, Vogue Paris

Sat, 13 Apr 2013 09:37:00 +1000

Lili Barbery-Coulon, Beauty Editor, Vogue Paris

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Sat, 13 Apr 2013 01:44:56 +1000

some nights I smell Guate again. I miss her..I miss my life there. I miss my village. some nights I think of the lake, the boats, the tortillas, the smell of charcoal. I miss the market. I miss the old American hippies, I miss the cat calls and my cheeky Chris Brown lookalike. That was 2008. It’s been 5 years.

I miss Guate..

elegance is resistance.

Fri, 12 Apr 2013 10:33:51 +1000

it’s nice to keep certain things sacred - your likes, dislikes, what moves you..

that sense of mystery about a person - where’s that gone?

"This world without a leopard? Who’d want to be here?"

Thu, 11 Apr 2013 00:57:45 +1000

“This world without a leopard? Who’d want to be here?”

- Diana Vreeland (via irresistablebitch)
my thoughts exactly

"The only real elegance is in the mind; if you’ve got that, the rest really comes from it."

Thu, 11 Apr 2013 00:56:24 +1000

“The only real elegance is in the mind; if you’ve got that, the rest really comes from it.”

- Diana Vreeland (via lemontreesoceanbreeze)
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"All the hardest, coldest people you meet were once as soft as water. And that’s the tragedy of..."

Fri, 05 Apr 2013 20:18:52 +1100

“

All the hardest, coldest people you meet were once as soft as water.

And that’s the tragedy of living.

”

- Iain Thomas, I Wrote This For You (via thugzmansion)
and that’s a fact.

the importance of choosing

Mon, 04 Mar 2013 09:14:33 +1100

Been back on the yoga mat lately and it makes me wonder why I ever let myself get slack on it. My body just feels so much better after, my mind feels clear, I want to eat better and reject food that makes me feel sluggish . Especially since I’ve started this new job, I feel like I have to make this a priority - almost like taking medication. I have to make time for it, no two ways about it, not like before, when it felt optional - like a bit of a leisure activity.

I’ve also started meditating - and I do put aside time for that too.

I suppose everything in life is a choice. You can choose to choose, until you are forced to choose, then you HAVE to choose.

Moment of introspection

Thu, 22 Nov 2012 00:46:18 +1100

Nothing in life is a guarantee. Work hard, be kind, know when to stand up for yourself and when to pull your head in..know who your friends are. Family first.

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I’ve had many lovers in my life. Except none of them knew it.

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Carpe diem is a little scary. You gonna live life running scared? Or you gonna live. Life is too short, but also really long. Where does it say we deserve everything we want? Where does that entitlement come from? Why do I feel a little guilty for saying, ‘that’s enough. I’m happy with that’? Why should we get everything we want?

"My life accelerated, but had to wait my turn. Then i redecorated, that means my tables turned. Live..."

Thu, 15 Nov 2012 23:30:00 +1100

“My life accelerated,
but had to wait my turn. Then i redecorated,
that means my tables turned. Live life, might as well,
only way to learn.”

- J Cole - ‘Who Dat’

I GOT IN! J Cole - ‘Who Dat’

Thu, 15 Nov 2012 23:28:00 +1100

I GOT IN!

J Cole - ‘Who Dat’

love that green

Thu, 15 Nov 2012 23:27:22 +1100

love that green

Eau de parfum

Sat, 22 Sep 2012 19:07:20 +1000

I’ve been really into fragrances of late - mostly niche houses. In fact, when I think about it, I think my earliest memories have been linked to scents and smells. That sort of got lost along the way.

For example, I remember my first real perfume that I used to wear daily in primary school, was a Nina Ricci one, in a curvy lime green bottle with a hot fuschia cap. I can’t remember the name of it, but it was very fruity and smelled happy. There was a girl I used to idolise in school (as is the case in an all girls school) - she used to smell really clean and ladylike and floral. I thought that just added to her coolness. She told me she wore Nina Ricci. And that’s how it started.

My mom used to wear Issey Miyake a lot - the one in the frosted conical bottle: which I think doesn’t help narrow it down. I always picture her getting ready for work dressed in crisp linen tops.

I’m really loving how the niche houses make really well-blended, interesting perfumes that evolve and develop into something different over time.

It came back to me after exploring the Frederic Malle line.

I’ve also been really interested in the description of perfumes - the imagery it evokes.

I was browsing in a bookstore yesterday and came across a book titled ‘Diary of a Nose’ written by Jean-Claude Elena, the nose of Hermes. Such a sensual, honest voice. Translated from the French, it’s not meant to be a literary master-piece, but written in such a style as to truly evoke images of the creative process behind a scent. Abstract, nebulous, raw and closely linked to memory and imagery.

By chance, I also happened upon a Penhaligon’s flagship in town! Purchased a lovely bottle of Sartorial. Amazing, smells so intimate to me. I think it will be my signature scent.

I gotta start making some money. #youngmoney #cash money #drake

Thu, 02 Aug 2012 05:09:00 +1000

I gotta start making some money. #youngmoney #cash money #drake

Detox Day 3

Mon, 30 Jul 2012 08:36:03 +1000

okay, i gotta say, i cheated. yes, i had a couple of pretzels with my ‘dinner’ last night. it was after work, i was feeling lightheaded, and i needed the salt.

and dinner was a weird carrot mixture that i didn’t finish.

the nightcap of almond milk with grainy nut bits - much better with a spoonful of honey and blitzed in the microwave.

Next day, i downed the first 2 juices, no problem. BUT, i -did- have solid food for lunch. Yes, i did. It was Papa Rich, it was fried, it had rice in it and it was goooood. But I could only tolerate a small portion. My bowel motions were so much better after a bit of bulking.

I brought ‘dinner’ to work - some spinachy, ?garlicky, milky brew - which made me feel sick, like i was about to throw up. I tossed it into the lawn.

For real dinner, I had 2 boiled eggs, smoked salmon, couple of pretzels and the watermelon juice from the cleanse.

I felt whole, light and sane.

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Verdict?

Bad bits: The soups were horrible. Heating them up didn’t make them much better. Horrible. I probably should have done the cleanse during annual leave. It doesn’t work in my line of work. Not long enough to see any obvious effects in my skin. And of course, the guilt that goes with having to cheat :(

Good bits: The juices made you feel cleansed and light. You drink alot of water and herbal tea which again, I love, for the hippie-ness of it and it’s obviously very good for you. I did feel very clear and alert in the first two days of the cleanse, but I think any form of starvation will do that to you. I think the detoxifying part doesn’t come from the fasting or lack of solid food, it comes from all the liquid you’re putting into yourself. Again, not a bad thing. I love the fact that I was able to really pay attention to my body, care for it (dry body brushing? who knew?), and think about my relationship with food.

In general, I think it’s important to not just listen to your body, but also consider who you are in the wider context of your life. It’s good to care for you but what’s it doing to the people around you? My husband missed having meals with me, I missed making meals for him, and the incompatibility with my work schedule.

So next time, it’s a 5 day fast, with a different juice cleanse company, in a retreat/beach holiday somewhere with lots of yoga and massages!

Detox Day 2

Sat, 28 Jul 2012 15:16:49 +1000

Slept through the night. Quality of sleep no different. Still good.

Had an odd angry dream that my dad was making me throw away my lipsticks. I was RAGING in that dream.

Woke up at 9, which is good for a Saturday.

Didn’t feel hungry. Drank my juice. Drank some tea.

Took a bath with bath salts. Hubby came with me :) We had a nice little chat and focused on our breathing. Dry brushed myself after a rinse-down.

Had my 10 minutes in the sun out in the backyard. Slathered on some body oil and moisturiser.

Lunch. Lentils. Was alright.

Can’t say my skin looks any different but energy level is better. Day 1 was definitely the pits for me.

One more day to go. Extend the cleanse? Will need to reconsider.

Detox Day 1

Fri, 27 Jul 2012 17:21:17 +1000

First day of juice cleanse.

Day off work yay. Got up at 6am to pick up the juice. It was raining.

Started downing the first 2 bottles. Not even 11am. Also had the pumpkin seeds. This may appear alot harder than first expected. Spent the morning doing paperwork and applications. Momentarily fantasized about cheese.

Lunch - heated up the chickpea concoction. Wasn’t terrible, but definitely could’ve used salt. Hubby being ultra supportive by chowing down on Macas in front of me.

Somehow passed out on the couch for a nano-nap.

Woke up feeling lighter and ?buzzed. Unsure. Have already been to the toilet 5 times today. Pee running clear.

4th juice - mmm, watermelon. Tolerable. Picked into the detox teas. Polished off another small tub of pumpkin seeds (tomorrow’s).

Dry brushed my body all over to distract from overwhelming desire to eat something hot, salty and cheese-y.

Feel like going out for a walk but too cold and grey. Will concentrate on breath in front of TV instead.

Can’t wait for dinner.